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Feb. 18th, 2008 | 10:40 pm

here's my plan:
i want to disappear for a while...go on a little vacation. i think it would be ideal to wait until the weather is warmer, so that i can go out into the woods and tie myself to a tree for three days. i want to be alone. and force myself to think. and to feel. and to learn to appreciate the things i have. i'm convinced that tying myself to a tree is the way to go.

plan b is visiting another country by myself, but that's gonna cost money. and i'd have to take off more days at work because visiting another country is gonna take longer than three days in order for it to be worth it. plus, i'd probably find too many things to do to distract myself from my goal.

i gotta do something.
i feel like i'm depressed...but i won't admit because i fear that if i do it will consume me, like it has my mother. i prefer to not take it seriously and trudge through. but i'm not getting anywhere.
it's really hard.
and i've started crying at dog food commercials.

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from: egosomnio
date: Feb. 19th, 2008 03:22 pm (UTC)

I'd recommend at least a little food, too. You might not starve to death in three days, but the morale-killer a complete lack of food over a few days can be, along with the weakening effects, wouldn't be good. Especially considering the possibility of having to deal with dangerous animals (and/or people). That'd be exacerbated by loneliness and nicotine withdrawal.

Camping allows you the ability to get away if you need to. That'd be my main concern with that versus being tethered. Danger (in the form of animals or people, or particularly bad weather, or the possibility of health issues, not matter how likely or un-) really needs to be kept in mind. Doesn't need to kill the idea, but preparation for such is important. The routine of keeping a fire going can be meditative, also (or it could be distracting...that depends on a few things).

Oh, also, wherever you'd do it, it'd be a good idea to scout out locations at different times of the day/night beforehand; for an idea of climate changes throughout the day, and for maybe taking note of signs of wildlife and people.

I'm kind of rambling/brainstorming with this. I'd planned a lone camp a long while back, but I never got around to it, so I may be pulling up some remembered thoughts from then, too.

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