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Dec. 10th, 2008 | 11:12 pm

these things don't heal...they lie dormant. settle down. stir themselves back up.
have you ever felt like your heart was literally fighting to burst out of your chest, like it absolutely HAD TO abandon ship?
but it doesn't, it just shuts down. as the people you need the most let you down, your heart shuts down.
some things are just too awful to feel, and you have to switch off.
eventually, it's not even a conscious happening. the switch operates on it's own. you've become conditioned. automatic. and you no longer feel the things that could leave you so vulnerable as to destroy you. you're already destroyed.
it's a sacrifice.
but some things are just more than you can take.
we become damaged.

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